The Positive Within The Negative

The Positive Within The Negative
I was so close, so close to my dream, I could nearly taste it. What happened to it...an obstacle tore it from my grip...now I need to go down a different route. 

Although it was very clear that this obstacle derailed my path, I had the opportunity to reflect on what I really wanted. I realised I wanted to take a different path towards my goal, and now I see the obstacle as a truly positive obstruction in my path.

I now have redirected my focus towards my redirected goal, and I can see it in the not to distant future now. I won't stop until I realise my dream, I will go on.

Is Failure My Reality?

Is Failure My Reality?
Have you ever worked so hard to make something a reality, that when it's nearly there you pull out due to fear of failure?

I'm going through that now and it sucks. I've been working towards a dream I've had for around 5 years now, and I've taken every stop possible to achieve my goal. The last steps to realising my dream happen soon, and I'm suddenly so scared of failure. Up until now I haven't even considered the prospect that I may fail, and the realisation is hitting me like a tonne of bricks at the moment.

People around me tell me that the only reason I'll fail is if I don't even try. If I attempt to realise my dream, I'll either achieve it, or take away some valuable life and character building lessons. To me I don't see it this way. If I'm rejected I'm going to feel broken, an emotion I won't feel if I stay safe and don't try. It's going to hurt so much if I'm rejected, I don't know if I can deal with the pain.

On the other hand I don't want to be one that sits on the sidelines their entire life and watch the years pass them by, never stepping out of their comfort done and taking risks. I know that if I don't try for this dream that I will never step out of my comfort zone. The pain of rejection from my dream will be a crucial hurdle I may have to overcome in way to move forward in my life towards the life that I love.

Whether I achieve my goal or not, I'm going to take the risk; despite the chance of failure, pain and hurt. I am going to give my dreams every thing I have, and focus on that. I will deal with the chance of failure after I give it my best effort. 

You only have one life, do not waste it with fear of failure. Give every opportunity your best shot, and if you don't succeed, dust your self off and try again.

Where's My Leader?

Where's My Leader?

My life is a cluttered corridor with a barely visible door
I am supposed to be a leader, strong and courageous,
yet I feel weak and inferior

How can I lead, when I have no one to lead me
I need a captain to steer me back onto course
For alone I have lost my purpose

I cannot lead without it, and fear I must leave
And return to the path I first took, where I was directed by a leader

Must Go On

Must Go On

How can I know what the future holds?
The leap of faith I have to make is great, with a huge chance I will fall
But I cannot let that happen. I must be strong, I must prepare, I must succeed
If I cannot I must pick myself up and continue
It is not good enough to only go half the way
I have a goal, and will not stop until I reach it
I cannot give up
I must go on

Not Anymore- A Poem

This is a poem I wrote this afternoon while I was pondering about my future. While I'm not sure right now what I should be doing, I know there is something out there for me, and I must keep searching until I discover my path.

Not Anymore

It's dark...the sun doesn't shine for me anymore
It's hallowed shape haunts me of a past I once knew
The jagged edges it left, rough with the scars of my past

No it will not ever shine again for me
My future is a cracked and broken path,
Full of holes and deception

Where the sun doesn't shine the spirit doesn't lie
Thus I must move on till I find where the sun doth lie.
..........................

It sounds quite dark and ominous to me now, I'm not too sure what it meant to me.
I'll let you interpret it for yourself.

Katie xoxo

New Year, New You...Really?

New Year, New You

They all say it, the TV presenters, magazines, Facebook, blogs, family and friends.

For many who make big goals for 2015 it may be a new experience, but why should one day differ in a huge way from the last. 

Life is all about change and new experiences, but a new year doesn't really mean that much in the scheme of things.

Every day you should make goals for the next, and every week you should re-evaluate your goals and steps to achieve them.

A blanket goal such at wanting to get fit made on New Years Eve is probably going to be forgotten during the business of the year, and without creating the steps to achieve your goal, it will be a forgotten memory by the next year.

A New Year does not define you, will not create a miraculous change or bring on a New You.

Your actions and decisions EVERY single day of the year are what define you.

Every day has the possibility of being a New You if you are prepared to take a jump and grab it.

Every tomorrow is another chance to change yourself and your direction, don't wait for a New Years Eve to reach to a New You.

Katie xoxo